The path of Self Destruction..
A day in my life follows a common pattern.. A pattern of atrocious waste of time and procrastination.. Get up late.. a cup of coffee while watching the idiot box.. a shower and dress up.. start to plan what to do.. lunch.. who can work after lunch?? so back to siesta.. Evening tea.. watch a movie or cartoon etc while still planning what to do in the day.. huh what day?? its already ended.. so i decide "Tommorrow will be the day i will work all 24 hours".. so sayin its back to tv and late night movies.. unfortunately.. "Tommorrow never arrives".. whoever said "postponement is the thief of time" is wrong.. Its the murderer, not just thief..
The path of Self destruction.. making no efforts to improve myself.. letting my talents and intellect rot.. gaining over confidence.. procrastination to infinity.. no effective time and resource management.. no motivation to achieve goals.. no goals in the first place.. forget about achieving them.. no urge.. no enthusiasm.. no aything ang everything..
Where IS the drive to live life to the fullest?? the enthusiam to take things as they come.. the urge to excel.. the euphoria of success.. the thirst of knowledge.. the desire to help others.. the obsession to fulfill one's duty.. the need to attain peace of mind.. why am i falling behind?? arent these the main aim of my life?? how could i forget them??
What is it that i lack?? food ?? clothes?? shelter?? .. I have everything i need, including oppurtunity.. perhaps thats the problem.. U never realise the worth of what u have till u dont have it anymore.. just taking things for granted..
At times, i feel i am making no effort to change myself simply bcoz i dont want to change.. Why should i change even if i am following the path of self destruction?? I simply dont know the answer.. I dont know why i think the things that i think or do..
IF only there were answers to all the questions..
come to think of it.. if there were answers to all questions.. the set of uncomputable problems would be empty.. :D...
The path of Self destruction.. making no efforts to improve myself.. letting my talents and intellect rot.. gaining over confidence.. procrastination to infinity.. no effective time and resource management.. no motivation to achieve goals.. no goals in the first place.. forget about achieving them.. no urge.. no enthusiasm.. no aything ang everything..
Where IS the drive to live life to the fullest?? the enthusiam to take things as they come.. the urge to excel.. the euphoria of success.. the thirst of knowledge.. the desire to help others.. the obsession to fulfill one's duty.. the need to attain peace of mind.. why am i falling behind?? arent these the main aim of my life?? how could i forget them??
What is it that i lack?? food ?? clothes?? shelter?? .. I have everything i need, including oppurtunity.. perhaps thats the problem.. U never realise the worth of what u have till u dont have it anymore.. just taking things for granted..
At times, i feel i am making no effort to change myself simply bcoz i dont want to change.. Why should i change even if i am following the path of self destruction?? I simply dont know the answer.. I dont know why i think the things that i think or do..
IF only there were answers to all the questions..
come to think of it.. if there were answers to all questions.. the set of uncomputable problems would be empty.. :D...
posted by kunjala @ 10:44 PM
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Read "The roadless Travelled" by M. Scott Peck and
"The power of subconscious mind" by Joseph Murphy.
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